Ahh! This sucks! I can't believe how hard this is. Im at work right now and i have a little downtime so i thought i would write and maybe it would take my mind off this desperate craving. I wonder if there is some trick to making it go away. I recently read in a magazine if you can go 30 days without something then you can go without it forever. Well im on day 3 and its still really hard.
Im also on this crazy diet and honestly i cant tell if it helps or if it hurts. Cause my biggest candy craving is after any meal but this diet is one were you only drink shakes, so i dont really have that need to get something sweet. The down side is that im either perpetually hunger or feeling a little sick. Thats the weirdest thing about this diet. I know that if i could eat something besides a little salad that i would go back to feeling just fine.

Ok ok, enough whining.

I did do my pilates last night and more yoga and some pilates this morning. I plan on doing more tonight since i still cant bring myself to work out on my lunch at work. I have to keep working on that.

Feeling Weak

Its that time of the night and im feeling pretty weak about the candy thing. I really really want something sweet and its taking just about all the willpower i have not to dig out the candy i have hidden and have just a tiny piece. Its so weird that my mouth just craves that something sweet.

on the plus side i did do the intermediate pilates today and i really liked it. It was challenging but not so challenging that i was depressing. I think the pilates is something that i can keep doing. I would really like to get some more dvds so that i can mix it up a little bit. I am trying to figure out how i might be able to go walking tomorrow at work, but i havent quite worked that one out get. 

Ok well i feel that the candy need has past, so im doing better. I might have to blog again before bed, but so far so good.

ive made it one entire weekend without any candy. I have to say im pretty proud of myself. Now to take on the week. One day at a time.

Day 2

Well its day 2 of the no candy, and i have to say its alot harder that i thought it would be. But atleast day 2 means that i already made it through day 1. I am surprised at how often my mind brings up that wonderful sweet taste. Its really hard after i eat i found to make it through without something sweet. Also at night i find myself wanting something sweet to eat. But so far i have been able to be strong.
Im starting to work out now too. I did pilates yesterday and the day before and i plan to do it again today. Im pretty proud about that. I really want to go walking as well.

well things are picking up here at work so i better go....

So it begins

I am making a new pledge in my life to change some of my bad habits for the better. One of the challenges that i seem to be continually running up against is my love for candy, cakes, and all sweet treats. Its always been a favorite of mine, but as i get older i can see that all that processed sugar is having some pretty negative effects on my body. I know that while i am still young enough to make some significant changes in my life i really need to. I want to change my life style somewhat. Nothing to drastic, although i will be going cold turkey on the candy for now, because with me and candy there is no such thing as just a little bite.
Unfortunately the other things that i would like to change, mainly my waistline right now, will not be so easy to quit. Sadly simply not eating wont make me lose the weight that i have gained and be back to a normal happy healthy size. I have tried the whole not eating at all thing. And not only does it make me extremely grumpy, but i also dont have enough self discipline to do it for more than on very miserable day. So i will have to find some other method of weight loss that i can work with my life.
One of my main problems, aside from the serious candy addiction, is that i work at a job that requires me to sit at a desk behind a computer with little to no movement from that spot that entire time i am there. I even have lunch at my desk, lest something happen and i miss it and then all hell breaks loose. And usually this sedentary work wouldn't bother me in the least, except that i can see the negative effects its having on my body. In my last two places of work, although they were both desk jobs as well, they were both in fairly large buildings, one with three levels of stairs, and i did a lot of running around to find people and do meetings and things like that. At this current job, i am practically chained to a desk with almost no movement at all!
Sometimes i wish that i had a really labor intensive job, like in the olden days, where working on a farm and picking veggies was a days work and all the exercise that a person could need. I hate that i have to work 40 hours a week and then find at least 10 extra hours a week to exercise. What a waste! I could be multi-tasking, getting my exercise and getting paid!

My idea to combat this is to take part of my non-lunch break (which i will be asking for soon) and go for a walk. Its cold out now, but work has a treadmill in the uber creepy basement which i might brave. Another idea i have to do Office Yoga, which is stretches and breathing exercises you can do from your chair. I did some this morning, and although i probably look pretty silly , it was nice to stretch out

But overall my main goal is to kick the candy habit, or at least knock it into something more manageable and not so dang addicting.

I want to write in the blog each time i have a candy craving and my hope is that blogging in combination with eating some better and working out will help me to get back into shape. A nice straight shape, not this round one that i have been lugging around.