Wii want to be fit!

So Rob was super sweet and got me a Wii Fit for Valentines day. Ive been drooling over them since they came out and I was super super excited to get one. Well Valentines came and went and I am still Wii-less. I own it, yes, but do to the move and all the work we have been doing on the house we havent been able to hook it up and play with it. And i want to! I still think it looks like so much fun and i have my fingers crossed that we can get it hooked up before Rob heads back out on the road.

Another mostly good day. Ive worked out, eating mostly ok. Yes i fell off the wagon and had a twix, and man it was awesome. But i really dont eat very much so i feel like its not horrible. In a normal day i have 1 medfast shake, 1/4 cup of pumpkin seeds and either a 100 calories soup for dinner or salmon and veggies. I feel like its not horrible for me to sneak in a candy bar once or twice a week. This may just be my lack of willpower talking, but i love the candy man i dont know if i will ever be able to stop cold turkey. But at least i have been able to cut down my intake. I just have to keep working on that.

Better

Well i have been doing a bit better on the whole diet, no candy, workout thing. I was able to sneak in a work out today at work and i feel that maybe makes up for my bag of raisnettes this weekend. ( And man were they good!!) I havent had any candy today. And im seriously fighting the urge to hit the vending machine upstairs, but i think i can hold back.
Thats all for now... :)

Oops

well its been awhile since i posted. and i think its pretty obvious why. I was doing pretty good on the eating healthy and staying away from the candy, but this week has been horrible!! Ive been really bad! Ive only worked out 1 day and since the weather has been horrible and i havent been able to get home ive had really weird eating habits. Ive done 2 lean cuisines this week and a lunchable. They arent terrible on the calories, but man that sodium!! Its crazy that a lunch able, which is only meat cheese and ritz crackers can cost me 300 calories and like a million grams of sodium! I resolve to be better. Hopefully i will be able to get home and get my eating back on track.
I also have been really really bad about working out. I havent done any pilates in about a week, its pretty sad. Im trying, but not hard enough. I need to focus more on my goal and not let these day to day things get in the way.

Well i cant say that its been an overly successful weekend. I did stay away from candy, but i totally ate rice crispy snacks and snuck 2 or 3 oreos. The candy craving is really lessening with time, but i feel like i might be substituting those little cookies and other snacks. I mean i love me some candy, but im not going to turn down free cookies....or cake... or rice kripsy treats. Its pretty hard. We had cake at work again on friday and my weakness overcame me and i had a piece. It wasnt even that good of cake, but i still couldnt stop my self from eating it. I did however restrain from eating a piece of the second cake which came later that night. 2 cakes in one day!! are they trying to torture me! The cake was handed to me and it was lemon butter or something like that, so i only had like 2 bites before i was able to pull myself into control and toss the cake into the trash.
I havent really been so awesome at working out either. I wasnt able to get my walking in at work most of last week cause it got all crazy and i wasnt able to leave my desk. I did some yoga yesterday morning, so that was atleast something. It wasnt high intensity and i dont feel any results, but yoga is the kinda thing you have to do everyday for like years before you see any results.
Im still unhappy with my weight. And im beginging to worry that i might never get back down to what i want.

Today i worked out for 25 minutes, ( i could have done longer, but its tight when you are working out on your lunch break) and ive had no candy!

This is to make up for a weekend of no exercise and about 10 oreos.

I think im doing better. The candy craving isnt as bad, although it is still there. And when i had the oreos this weekend, i could have 1 or two and be just fine. I didnt need to eat 30 of them to feel satisfied.
I hope to do some more pilates tonight and keep this good trend up for the rest of the week.

Yay Me

I got to weigh today and i made it down to 156! Thats pretty good for me. My goal is 150 and i would love to get a little lower, but im going to just keeping doing what im doing since it seems to be working. I was able to get in a workout tonight on my lunch break at work and it felt great! I love to be able to get out from behind this desk and go do something. Its makes the rest of the inactivity much more bearable. And i did pilates last night and plan to do them again tonight, so thats double exercise! I think that makes up for the 2 cookies i had today. ( darn those girl scouts for making their cookies so delicious)
Im still on the no candy wagon, although i did fall off with the 2 cookies today. I was proud however that i was able to restrain myself to only 2 cookies not 17 like normal. Its very hard when they leave the entire box sitting directly in front of me all afternoon, i mean are they trying to torture me?
So tomorrow marks the first real weekend i will have since i started this job and i am nervous to see how i will do with my eating. Its really hard to be around my family who all love candy, chocolate and anything sweet and not eat anything. So fingers crossed that i will be able to stay strong.

Boo

I want some candy!

A New day

Today has been a much better day for me eating wise. Ive been really good about eating and enjoying the salad for dinner and not getting tempted by a tons of snacks at work. I may have developed an unhealthy relationship with tic tacs today, but still not one piece of anything sort of sweet has passed my lips! Since falling hard off the wagon the past few days im really proud to say that i didnt eat any candy or cookies or anything else today.
Now to continue working on that exercise thing. Its really hard for me to find a work out schedule that works. I would really like to start using the creepy basement treadmill that i have seen the other ladies in the office using, but if i went right after i got off work i wouldn’t get home until 12:30am. And that just seems to late. And i dont want to work out right before work, cause i dont want to get all sweaty. My solution so far has been to get up early and do pilates and yoga before work. Its low impact so i dont get all gross before work, but i would still like to incorporate some higher heart rate exercise into the plan.

Well one day at a time and todays happy note is that im candy free for today!

Off the Wagon

I feel like im not making a great deal of progress in my new me. Its really a lot harder than it should be. I haven't been able to excerise in like 4 days and every time i come to work there are cookies or cake or some sort of amazing snack sitting right in front of my face. Ive been pretty strong, but i totally fell off the wagon today and had two cookies! I could justify the cookies if i had worked out at all the past few days. I have been at robs since our trip and without my pilates dvd and i havent gotten in any workouts. Its really quite discouraging. I still technically havent had any candy, but the other sweets are getting to me. And i think cookies and cakes and those sweets are just as bad as candy, if not worse. Tonight i resolve to do some sort of work out, even if i have to stay up until 2 am to get it done ( my crazy work schedule doesn't help trying to get in a workout)

This is what i should look like:

This is what i actually look like:

Yup thats about a 10 to 15 pound difference. Im still on the no candy. Although being away from home is making it really hard to eat normally. And i haven't worked out and we went out to dinner with rob's family last night. So sufficet to say that im not doing to well on this no candy/ weight loss program. Im pretty sure im back to where i started, which is pretty depressing. I just need some time to be able to focus on this stuff. With Rob at home i want to dedicate all my time to him and that usually means i ditch my workout and go out to eat. Two very bad things. He has tried to be encouraging, but being on vacation, his family coming to visit and not having any food in the house what so ever makes it really really hard to make good decisions. I had a salad last night, but i didnt do dressing on the side and thats a major no-no. Also the fam wanted to go out for ice cream and i just dont have enough willpower to say no while everyone else is eating. Plus it was rob's b-day so i didnt want to make it akward. Lame Lame Lame.

Im a little depressed about the situation right now, but hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

Two Steps Back

Well i kinda fell off the wagon the past few days. Rob and i had a great trip to Buffalo, but of course being on vacation makes it really really hard to stay on a diet. I dont feel like i did too terribly, but i know i could have done better. I didnt cheat on the no candy thing though. Techinally i didnt eat any candy so im still on board. I did totally have 3 cookies and a rice krispy treat. And i didnt work out at all. Really quite sad. So ive probaly gained back the 2 pounds that i lost last week.
But on the plus side im back on the wagon. Had my yucky shake this morning and even though Rob's parents are here and are going to want to go out to eat i know i will be having a salad with dressing on the side. I forgot my pilates dvd at home, so i am going to have to come up with some other way to sneak in some excercise. I cant wait until we have our house and i have my YMCA membership! Then i can really do some good work.